i'm screwed...

Familiarity breeds contempt, while rarity wins admiration. - Apuleius

this is so true...

i have just come into realization why people find it very hard, impossible even, to be happy...
happiness is such, should i say, supposed to be a simple word, yet so difficult to achieve...

one of the most common reason is that people has this mother-fuck*r insatiable need to have things they don't have! and when the fools do get what they wished for they tend wish for more! more and more and more!

and once they have everything they THINK they need; a status quo would be in place for a brief moment... such a brief friggin moment; then when they see them always around them for sometime, seeing them too often that they don't see them anymore! they can walk around them and be all over and not care about them anymore...

this doesn't only pertain to material things... most of the time this happens to people around us; mostly to people who love us...

i once had a discussion with a very good friend of mine who i hold close to my heart.
she says that she always loves 100%. she feels not giving 100% is cheating... she is not comfortable with the idea of not offering everything to her loved one. she says and THINKS it's unfair...

i asked one simple question which put the discussion to a close, "if that were the case, what can you offer tomorrow when you have already everything today?"
i got no reply...

one can do everything he/she can for someone... everything else put aside and sacfriced just to offer his/her all to another person and still end up unloved, worse, unappreciated...
one often gives out their all, because they want it to be reciprocated... most of the time, disappointment follows...

many givers tend to give out everything they can offer, not thinking first that the other person has different needs... hence the all end up with nothing...

people deserve to be unhappy...

they are insatiable ingrates!

f*ck...

too bad i'm also a human being...

bummer...