acceptance is key...

i have not been writing for the past few weeks...
i know i have tons of things i could share on my site...
a lot of them are good stuff...

but it's either i have no spare time or i'm too busy, or sometimes just not in the mood to blog...

now i have time.... unfortunately, it's not one of them happy thoughts...

it's never easy to be heartbroken. no amount of words of encouragement, monetary amount, nor sky's the limit shopping, splurging and pigging-out can take away the pain...

i spent roughly 20,000 today treating myself just to forget the pain... still it hurts...

it's been a rough year... hurt twice by two women i considered most important in the world... women i have loved and who have loved me back in return, but sadly neither worked out...

i'm sorry if i wasn't you expected... i have always been true to you and i have given you what i can and everything i could offer... i'm sorry to hear that i wasn't what you needed...

you said you loved me... i believe you... because i felt it...
but you can't bear it anymore... and you said you've already made a decision...
that you would go with the person you can't live without... i'm happy for you...
i loved you, too... and i'm really sorry it didn't work out for us...

again, my best wishes...