i want ice cream...

today has not been the best of days...
i barely had enough shut-eye for the night's shift. my arms feel sore and my back hurts.
hay....

i feel exhausted...

good thing it's raining...
i want ice cream. i need ice cream...

i need sleep...

early this morning, i, together with my special someone, had to walk the empty ayala streets. the bro. eddie villanueva anti-gloria mobilization closed down the ayala area, and was kept close for today's susan roces' own mob.

it was 5:20am.
"aga pa...", i said.
"mall tayo...", she suggested.
"mam, 10am pa bukas nun...", i remarked.
"alam ko...", she candidly said.
"tara...", i said as i grabbed her hand i led her to ayala park; right in front of 6750 starbucks.

the benches there were still cool from last night's rain. we decided to sit down on one of them benches to spend some time together first before calling it a day.

the place was so quiet and calm that it was a perfect place to chat. our chat turned into a talk, talk turned into a very long conversation. we were joined by some other early birds; from taong grasas, to metro sweepers, to makati traffic aides, little maya birds and a fat orange corporate tomcat who preys on them.

the place was just too nice. our conversation went on and on. next thing we knew, it was already 9am!

1.5 hours trip to valenzuela, and another 1.5 hours back...

nice...
slept 2.5 of the 5 hour allowance till my next shift...

nice...

i'm slowly drifting away now to neverland as i draft this blog...i can barely keep my eyes open...

i need sleep...

office issues....

i have always considered my office, second home; actually, third home... almost forgot about our provincial home...

i have worked closely with most people on the ops floor, and i have full trust in the people i work with daily, and i believe each and everyone else on PS feels the same way. but two incidents shook that status quo... at least for me...

one: manny, lucky a*s winner of a Honda scooter, lost a screw on his prize... a screw! just a simple screw, intentionally, i repeat intentionally pilfered by a nutcase on the floor... probably someone so bitter he didn't win the prize; who just decided to get a piece of the game... sore loser...

written on the incident report on the agent's notes: i want to take home my prize soon. Help."

two: abbie, a very close friend of mine, lost her starbucks mug... for the second time! she accidentally left it in the pantry area, and 15 minutes later... it's gone.

it's really sad to think that our workplace is not that safe anymore. a scooter screw, and a starbucks mug... not even worth P400... so sad...

just two hours worth of work...

so sad...

things are better now...

con·tent·ed (kən-tĕn'tĭd) adj.
Satisfied with things as they are; content:Satisfied with things as they are; content:

title says it all...
carlo<----contented...

the price to pay for happiness...

the last few weeks had been a real rollercoaster ride!
i have been a very, very bad tomcat...

played with fire... got burnt...
bad thing about it was, i burnt alot more than i thought...

person i care about; person she cared about; peers, friends and relatives who cared about both of them; the status quo of their simple lives...

i'm not worried about myself... i'm strong, i can lick myself back to good health and be on my feet sooner than anyone else. i'm more worried about the person i cared most about lately... it was too much for her...

i never thought i would damage the system that much in the process...
the very person who i thought would benefit from it, was the most damaged and affected...

all i wanted was to be happy...

that's all...
i'm really sorry...